Saturday, 28 February 2009

Faves of the mo...

Ok so i'm stuck in bed so thought I would cheer myself up by posting some pictures of favorite outfits of late seeing as I can't do a What I wore today post!!
This outfit has been worn on many occasions usually to a gig or to go out for drinks .. it's simple and can be changed up a little by accsessories!

Top: Primark
Skirt: New look
Tights: Primark
Boots: Unknown
Belt: New Look
Brown Scarf - Avon.
Silver Scarf: Thrifted.

I have been loving this flowery dress now for some months, got it last summer I think and its been all over the place with me - it's so comfy and really brightens up anyday whether worn alone, with tights or trousers!

The above piccie is in Le Touquet with my lovely mummy.

Dress: Boutique at Mcarthur Glen.
Cardigan: New Look.
Hair Flower (Just seen): Claires.
Jeans: New Look. (I think)
Shoes: Mary Janes as a present for b'day!

I love this bright pink combo, and often wear this cardi with lots of other outfits to brighten them up!
Dress: New Look.
Cardi: New Look.

Ok a few more faves 1st pic Black top is a staple wardrobe fave.

Brown top and cream flowery skirt were aqquired in the US and I love them. Grey top is mainly a work item but do wear it socially somtimes teamed with jeans and boots.

This shirt I wear all the time - love it!

1st pic: Black top: unknown.

2nd pic: Top H&M USA
Skirt: H&M USA
Shoes: Mary Janes bought as present.

3rd pic: Top: Primark
Jeans: George at Asda
Boots: Unknown

4th Pic: Top: Chereokke
Shorts: Chereokee.

I don't wanna fall to pieces!

Well - I'm not in France :'(
Can't believe that I am here sat at home on my own missing out because of my stupid illnesses, it's really go me down - I haven't cried so much in a long time - and I cry a LOT!!

I had a terrible night last night - couldn't sleep had stupid jerks in my legs and pains in my stomach - I'm sure my IBS has never been this bad before! I got to thinking about my different illnesses - and I realised I have 5 now! Or 4 and a possibility :(

My Fibromyalgia - no wonder they call it the silent disease as everyone says how well I look etc when i'm actually feeling like a ten tonne truck has hit me several times, I get aches and pains, and am soooo tired that no-one could understand it's like permanent jet lag :( Then theres the bit where it could actually be shutting down my organs over time - great huh?

Next is my IBS which I have had for around 8 years now, which they are saying could of been an underlying indication of my Fibro (yeah thanks) but I haven't had a bad a flare up as this in a long long time ;(

My high anxiety is next on the list - which apparently is also made worse by the Fibro - I also have bad panic attacks these days :( and when I get stressed I have a nervous twitch!

Last on the list is my antibody count is too high, so instead of fighting off the bad cells IE when a cold infection enters my system - they are attacking all my good cells, so I don't really have an immune system which is why I'm always getting colds and stomach bugs!

All these symptoms all go round in a circle as when I get stressed it makes my Fibro worse but then when my Fibro is bad I can't sleep I get stressed and my OCD comes to the forefront more!

Also now I am being tested for Polycystic ovaries :( I had some tests and they came back slightly high so now I have to have an ultrasound on my stomach :(

Sometimes I lie awake at night not being able to sleep and I wonder where its going to end, will the symptoms get worse - my consultant at the hosp has released me as they can't give me anymore treatment until they do get worse BUT I DON'T WANT THEM TOO!!
I lie awake thinking what have I done to deserve this, am I being punished in some way? Then I feel really bad as there are people out there with far worse things than i have .. but it's stopping me doing everything I love - i just wish i could go back to a couple of years ago and be "normal" again .. I feel like I'm falling to pieces both mentally and physically:(

Thursday, 26 February 2009

Didn't get to go to NeverNeverLand

Well I didn't get to go to Metallica :'( As I wasn't very well .. had to have yet another day off work today - and went to the docs, he says it's just my condition and a bad flare up of my IBS :'( Am in quite a lot of pain at the moment - given me some new tablets so we'll see - I'm rattling!

France 2morro - hope I feel better :'( Won't be much fun for me or the boy's if I feel like this .. will hopefully add some pics when I get back .. am already feeling a bit uneasy about packing and going 2morro - what with my ocd I find it really hard some days! Trying to remain calm though and hopefully I'll get some sleep tonight - please please please!

Sal xXx

Tuesday, 24 February 2009

My first blog!

I've been a secret reader of some peoples blogs for a while now, spesh loving the fashion ones like what I wore today etc ....

Hopefully I might do a few days myself as I like the idea of doing that .. not everyday though - as I have Fibromyalgia and so somedays there would just be shots of me lazing around in my pj's!!

I mainly started this blog as it is now 5 months till my wedding day and it will be nice to keep record of things and be able to look back on how I felt and what I was doing.

Today I phoned the Bridal Rooms where i have ordered my shoes from - they said they left me a voicemail saying they were here, but I deffo haven't received it - hmmmm Anyway hopefully I'll be able to go on Thurs after work and try my lovely shoes on :D
They are the shoes I am hopefully having - after I check they fit of course! They are called Royale Else (Well it had to be done what with my name (at the mo :( ) being Else!!)

Also today some of my craft supplies have arrived to make my table numbers and placecards - got v excited (oh dear) My stationary should be on it's way now 2 and I go to pick up my wedding ring on Friday :)

I'm having a Edwardian style dress by Ronald Joyce with lots of lace and bling :) I won't post a pic of that though as I don't want anyone to see it yet :).
I had my hair trial last Thursday and I do like it but it doesn't feel quite right as my hair is shoulder length and I have been trying to grow it for about a year .. however it hasn't been to successful .. And when it's curly it's even shorter:

So now I'm thinking of buying hair extensions .. I have seen these that I like:

So I might see .. I want it to go over my shoulders in cascading curls .. pics are on pc so will have to add them another time!!

To do list:
  • Find Vintage hair clip to match tiara!
  • Find and buy BM dresses (which are driving me mad)
  • Vintage style long sparkly earrings
  • Evening invites
  • Table name holders
  • Mirrors for centre pieces
  • Organza ribbon for napkins
  • Memory candle
  • Make the table names and placecards
  • Type up speech
  • Find 2nd reading
  • Hotel list, gift list and song request lists.
  • Book booze Cruise for all the alchyhol :)

Will prob think of more later .. anyway better go and get my tea - it's pancake day 2day so better find some room - Have really bad tummy ache though :'(

Metallica 2morro YEY :)